Today I went to the mall and walked with my friend Karla this has been a pretty regular thing for us. I enjoy it so much. It's twice a week that I look forward to. Its a time to get a work out in, chat and then let our boys play. I am going to miss that time so much. Karla's little boy is right about a month older and just recently they have actually paid attention to each other and it's so much fun just watching them and how they interact. We also go out to lunch often. Just more time to talk to a great friend. Today at lunch Karla's older boy Jacob and Kohen kept giving hugs and a few kisses it was too cute. Those are the moments you just have to sit back and enjoy. This age has been wonderful. Watching Kohen grow and learn is so amazing. I will miss these days but I look forward to the future!
In the beginning of our journey I was told by so many that it’s gets easier I’m not going to lie it doesn’t get easier you just find a new normal. It’s an illusion that’s it’s easier. You still have the stress, endless doctors appointments, therapy appointments, medication changes, routines that are being changed, new people coming in and out of your lives friendships that come and go etc. My anxiety attacks are no longer happening multiple times a day for no rhyme or reason (I can’t tell you the last time I had one actually 🙌🏻 also knocking on some wood right now) I had made a post the other day about being worried when I dropped Kaiya off at school. I surprisingly have had very little anxiety through this process this year. Last spring completely different story. I have come to the realization that for the most part whatever happens to Kaiya is out of my hands. I can do everything within my power to protect her and she may still one day be taken from me before I w...
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