Life Blessed by Grace

It’s been a really rough, exhausting month. I haven’t broke down yet but I can feel it coming.  The unknown, the wondering why. It’s hard. It plays with your mind. It’s exactly what satan is trying to do. Trying to drive a wedge in my faith. My faith, my God is so much bigger and stronger. I know he has Kaiya in his hands. He’s taking care of her no matter what lies ahead. 🙌🏻

I’m going to update this as I find them and he says them. 3/26/2018 Conversations with Kohen on the way to school. K-Do you think they will take away our 2nd amendment? M-No, but they might try.  What happens when they do take away that? K-Like what Hitler did, he was controlling and powerful, killed a lot. Kohen actually went into more depth than what I put on here and I was pretty surprised which I shouldn’t be. 2/23/2018 On the way home from school Kohen looks at Kaiya and says “ugh...mean mom, why didn’t she take your braces off? Don’t worry I’ll take them off” “There you go, now give me your other foot so I can get that one too.” “Is that better?” “I bet your more comfortable now aren’t you?” “Mom, Kaiya smiled so she must have liked that I took them off right?” My heart just grows and grows for this boys heart. I didn’t think anything about Kaiya having her afo’s on but Kohen was very concerned that she was uncomfortable. 6/20/2015 Kohen trying to convince his ...

I'm honestly not sure why I stopped so long ago. I wish I didn't because looking back I love the memories that I did write about. Then of course life happens. I can't believe it's been so long since I have written anything.  I used this as sort of a diary and I'm so sad that I didn't keep up with it.  I'm going to be adding bits and pieces here and there from the past as I find them. Lots will probably be from Facebook posts.  I want to be able to look back and see life's blessings. The good and the bad. The bad is what makes you treasure the good that much more. It makes you stronger. It makes me lean on God that much more. My faith just grows and grows. I want to share it all with everyone that wants to read about our lives.

We have been potty training for about 4 months or so.  And then it kind of clicked some days he does really well and other days he has many many accidents. It's also training myself  to be very aware of where we are going and making sure that there is a restroom and all of that fun stuff. We used to let him run around with out any underwear on, one time he pooped on the floor I walked in and asked K what did you do? "Bagle did it" He said it as if it's really what happened. Blaming things on the dog already. What is he going to be like when he has a little brother or sister. He would much rather pee standing outside or in the shower. Trying to get him to go on his potty consistantly hasn't been much fun.  We take two steps forward and one back. It sure has been a long process but can't wait for it to be over with! This parenting isn't all fun all the time. It's hard at times but I sure wouldn't change it for the world. And for fun a couple of pic...

We are now back on track for ttc.  I would really love to get pregnant in the next couple of months so I don't have to be "huge" pregnant again in the summertime.  That's pretty miserable.  I'm taking vitex to try and keep my periods regular.  And I am contemplating doing Soy Isoflavones it acts as a natural clomid. We are now on our 14th month of ttc.  I can't believe that it has taken this long again! I do know that all in God's perfect timing it will happen. "Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."Psalm 27:14

May started off with my 26th birthday, can you believe it!  Not too much longer and I will be 30 and I better have another baby by then. *wink*  No matter how I excited I am for everyone around me that is getting pregnant or having babies I feel this jealous rage.  K is now over 2 1/2 and we aren't close to being pregnant. I will be on birthcontrol for one more month and I just pray that my cyst is gone and that we will get pregnant soon.  Back to the reason I'm posting.  On my birthday I knew that I wasn't getting anything money has been a little tighter lately so I just figured it would be another day *ugh* Woke up and an hour later while having my pitty party the door bell rang.  Flowers! from my mom.  They were so me and very pretty and smell wonderful, it made my day.  When J woke up (he's working nights) we were going to go out to lunch but some things came up.  I had to run a few errands, so I decided to stop somewhere and get me a ca...