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Exhausted

It’s been a really rough, exhausting month. I haven’t broke down yet but I can feel it coming.  The unknown, the wondering why. It’s hard. It plays with your mind. It’s exactly what satan is trying to do. Trying to drive a wedge in my faith. My faith, my God is so much bigger and stronger. I know he has Kaiya in his hands. He’s taking care of her no matter what lies ahead. 🙌🏻

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